this is a poem I wrote back in June. I wasn't sure about posting it but I've revised it and now I feel more comfortable.
On the swingset
In the corner of the park
I am transported to a
Different place
To when I was a child
Swinging back and forth
In the living room
Trying to touch the ceiling
To when I was in elementary school
Swinging back and forth
Every recess
With my back to the playground
To when I was in the backyard
At the house where I grew up
Swinging back and forth
Playing with imaginary friends
Back to where I am
Taking in my surroundings
The silence of no one around me
The vast green fields
Large beautiful trees bordering
I close my eyes
Leaning back
Swinging back and forth
A gentle breeze encircling
I am transported
To a different place
The same but different
Beyond what we see
The sky is blue and cloudless
The air smells sweet
The green of the grass
The trees are greener
I see many people
Dressed in white
Tears and laughter
As families reunite
Coming through the trees
I see a light
I realize that
Its a man
Walking amongst the people
Welcoming, smiling
Shining brighter
Than the sun
I wish to run to them
But am held back
Swinging back and forth
In awe of what I see
I feel happiness
I feel tears
I feel joy
I feel peace
I blink
I am back
On the swingset
In the corner of the park
Friday, July 20, 2012
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
The Hardest Part - 7/13/12
Sometimes the hardest part is letting go
Letting go of problems
Letting go of control
Sometimes the hardest part is not knowing
Not knowing what's going to happen
Not knowing what to do
Sometimes the hardest part is waiting
Waiting for results
Waiting for the next move
Sometimes the hardest part is advice
Advice to hang in there
Advice to be patient
Sometimes the hardest part is admitting
Admitting you can't do it alone
Admitting its too much for you
Sometimes the hardest part is not worrying
Not worrying about the outcome
Not worrying about situations
Sometimes the hardest part is praying
Praying for help
Praying for answers
Sometimes the hardest part is to fall
To fall into the Father's hands
To fall into the Son's arms
If we allow ourselves
To fall on our knees
To pray to our Father in Heaven
Admit we can't do it alone
Ask for help
Be willing to wait
For answers
For the outcome
Give it up
In His hands
Accept Their mercy
Accept Their love
Then what seemed like
The hardest part
Isn't really
Hard at all
Letting go of problems
Letting go of control
Sometimes the hardest part is not knowing
Not knowing what's going to happen
Not knowing what to do
Sometimes the hardest part is waiting
Waiting for results
Waiting for the next move
Sometimes the hardest part is advice
Advice to hang in there
Advice to be patient
Sometimes the hardest part is admitting
Admitting you can't do it alone
Admitting its too much for you
Sometimes the hardest part is not worrying
Not worrying about the outcome
Not worrying about situations
Sometimes the hardest part is praying
Praying for help
Praying for answers
Sometimes the hardest part is to fall
To fall into the Father's hands
To fall into the Son's arms
If we allow ourselves
To fall on our knees
To pray to our Father in Heaven
Admit we can't do it alone
Ask for help
Be willing to wait
For answers
For the outcome
Give it up
In His hands
Accept Their mercy
Accept Their love
Then what seemed like
The hardest part
Isn't really
Hard at all
Take Upon His Name - 7/17/12
As Alma Sr instructed
At the Waters of Mormon
As King Benjamin addressed
His people at the Temple
We take upon His holy name
Its in His name
We pray to the Father
Its in His name
Which we may be saved
As we are bathed
In life giving water
As our sins were forgiven
Remembered no more
We covenant to follow
To keep the commandments
To love and serve one another
To take upon us the name of Christ
We shouldn't be
Afraid
Ashamed
Shy to stand
He was persecuted
Tortured
Abused
For what He taught
He bled from every pore
Nailed to the cross
Died and rose again
To repent for our sins
He conquered death
We have a chance to live
Its an honor to be able
To take upon His name
We don't have to
Go through
What He did
Its a blessing
I will always
Be willing to stand
For the Church
To witness
To testify
To take upon the name
Of Jesus Christ
At the Waters of Mormon
As King Benjamin addressed
His people at the Temple
We take upon His holy name
Its in His name
We pray to the Father
Its in His name
Which we may be saved
As we are bathed
In life giving water
As our sins were forgiven
Remembered no more
We covenant to follow
To keep the commandments
To love and serve one another
To take upon us the name of Christ
We shouldn't be
Afraid
Ashamed
Shy to stand
He was persecuted
Tortured
Abused
For what He taught
He bled from every pore
Nailed to the cross
Died and rose again
To repent for our sins
He conquered death
We have a chance to live
Its an honor to be able
To take upon His name
We don't have to
Go through
What He did
Its a blessing
I will always
Be willing to stand
For the Church
To witness
To testify
To take upon the name
Of Jesus Christ
Mouthpiece - 7/17/12
My heart starts to pound
I feel a rush of heat
Sitting in the pews
Testimony meeting
You're calling me
There's something you
Want me to say
At the podium this Sunday
I can feel
The Spirit speaking
To mine
A voice so divine
Your words pour
Into my mind
I listen carefully
To understand
I sit and wait
For my time
I get nervous
Try to keep calm
I rise and walk up there
Standing in front of the mic
Staring straight ahead
My mind goes blank
There's a pause
As they wait for me to speak
I start to shake
Look down at the red light
I wish I had
Remembered what you said
I stumble my way along
Trying to get the message across
I end and
Rush to my seat
You're words come back
With what I should've said
You assure me
I did fine
That in my own way
I brought the message
I wish I could speak
As eloquently
As beautifully
As you do
Or that I had
Time to prepare
I write better
Than I speak
I'm reminded
That its the
Simple and mild
Meek and humble
That its the
Ordinary and faithful
That you choose
For your work
Although I may
Stumble and fumble
Ramble and pause
My way along
I'm thankful
For when you choose
To use me
As a mouthpiece
I feel a rush of heat
Sitting in the pews
Testimony meeting
You're calling me
There's something you
Want me to say
At the podium this Sunday
I can feel
The Spirit speaking
To mine
A voice so divine
Your words pour
Into my mind
I listen carefully
To understand
I sit and wait
For my time
I get nervous
Try to keep calm
I rise and walk up there
Standing in front of the mic
Staring straight ahead
My mind goes blank
There's a pause
As they wait for me to speak
I start to shake
Look down at the red light
I wish I had
Remembered what you said
I stumble my way along
Trying to get the message across
I end and
Rush to my seat
You're words come back
With what I should've said
You assure me
I did fine
That in my own way
I brought the message
I wish I could speak
As eloquently
As beautifully
As you do
Or that I had
Time to prepare
I write better
Than I speak
I'm reminded
That its the
Simple and mild
Meek and humble
That its the
Ordinary and faithful
That you choose
For your work
Although I may
Stumble and fumble
Ramble and pause
My way along
I'm thankful
For when you choose
To use me
As a mouthpiece
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Turn To You - 7/12/2012
The drops have never
Been so loud
Rolling off my cheeks
Onto the sheet below
Kneeling against my bed
Hands clasped
Forehead resting
Eyes squeezed shut
Calling
For answers
For assistance
For comfort
Crying
In pain
In sadness
In need
Pleading
For justice
For care
For help
Knowing no
Human ear
Can hear me
Only You can hear me
I gingerly get up
Aching
Wishing
I knew what to do
All I can think to do
Is turn to you
You know all
You see all
You sent us
Your Only Begotten
Our Lord and Savior
Jesus Christ
He taught us
Loved us
Cared for us
Died for us
He felt everything
Our joy
Our happiness
Our sadness
Thinking of all
He went through
He knows the pain
He knows the hopelessness
Warmth comes over me
My tears dry instantly
I know You heard me
I know You’re near
Be still
Be calm
The Spirit
Tells me
Reminds me
He told me
That things will get worse
Before they get better
That was months ago
That I’m close
Look forward to the future
When things will be better
Lyrics of a song
Play in my mind
“He Said” by
Group 1 Crew
"I won't give you more
More than you can take
And I might let you bend
But I won't let you break
And know I'll never ever let you go"
More than you can take
And I might let you bend
But I won't let you break
And know I'll never ever let you go"
I’m calmer than I
Was before
I’m thankful
For You
I know that
When there’s nothing I can do
When my hope is gone
When I feel lost
I can always turn to you
You always know
What to do
You have the master plan
In hand
With faith and patience
You’ll help us through
When there’s nothing
Left to do
I turn to you
Friday, May 25, 2012
Equation
Through the gospel there is light
Through light there is hope
Through hope there is faith
Through faith there is happiness
Through happiness there is love
Through love there is families
Through families there is missionaries
Through missionaries there is Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ
Through Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ there is everything.
Through light there is hope
Through hope there is faith
Through faith there is happiness
Through happiness there is love
Through love there is families
Through families there is missionaries
Through missionaries there is Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ
Through Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ there is everything.
If You Told Me (A Year Ago) - 5/25/12
If you told me
I would meet with missionaries
I would take the lessons
I would be baptized
I would have said you're crazy
If you told me
I would read the Book Of Mormon
I would go to church every Sunday
I would have faith in God the Father and Jesus Christ
I would have said you're out of your mind
If you told me
I would enjoy missionary work
I would be trying to teach others
I would be trying to bring others unto the church
I would have said you're insane
If you told me
My life would change
My sins would be forgiven
I would have a new lease on life
I would have said don't play games with me
If you had told me
All those things
A year ago
I would have told you to get away from me
I never would have believed you
Its crazy how
Its insane how
Its amazing how
Its awesome how
Much one's life can change in a year.
I would meet with missionaries
I would take the lessons
I would be baptized
I would have said you're crazy
If you told me
I would read the Book Of Mormon
I would go to church every Sunday
I would have faith in God the Father and Jesus Christ
I would have said you're out of your mind
If you told me
I would enjoy missionary work
I would be trying to teach others
I would be trying to bring others unto the church
I would have said you're insane
If you told me
My life would change
My sins would be forgiven
I would have a new lease on life
I would have said don't play games with me
If you had told me
All those things
A year ago
I would have told you to get away from me
I never would have believed you
Its crazy how
Its insane how
Its amazing how
Its awesome how
Much one's life can change in a year.
One Day - 5/25/12
I was on a path
Thick with iniquity
Going nowhere good
I didn't like me
One day I decided
I would no more
I heard your voice
I opened the door
You were there
Waiting for me
Just as you'd always been
Bright and shining
The purest light
Smile on your face
Arms open wide
Daughter come hither
You beckoned
I ran to you
And was welcomed
In and out of the water I came
Taking upon
Your glorious name
My life never to be the same
One day when
Everything changed.
Thick with iniquity
Going nowhere good
I didn't like me
One day I decided
I would no more
I heard your voice
I opened the door
You were there
Waiting for me
Just as you'd always been
Bright and shining
The purest light
Smile on your face
Arms open wide
Daughter come hither
You beckoned
I ran to you
And was welcomed
In and out of the water I came
Taking upon
Your glorious name
My life never to be the same
One day when
Everything changed.
Friday, May 11, 2012
Puzzle Piece - 5/10/12
The hole inside
Nothing worldly can fill
No matter what you buy
You can't shake the feeling
Something is missing
You seek and search
But don't see what's in front of you
All you want is to be whole
Whole in your heart
Whole in your soul
Soften your heart
Open the door
Embrace the light
You'll find
God was there the whole time
He was there
He is there
Always and forever
He loves you
More than you can know
Embrace His love
Embrace His light
Have faith in His glory
Have faith in His might
In Him your heart is full
In Him your soul is complete
In Him your life is right
God is the puzzle piece
Nothing worldly can fill
No matter what you buy
You can't shake the feeling
Something is missing
You seek and search
But don't see what's in front of you
All you want is to be whole
Whole in your heart
Whole in your soul
Soften your heart
Open the door
Embrace the light
You'll find
God was there the whole time
He was there
He is there
Always and forever
He loves you
More than you can know
Embrace His love
Embrace His light
Have faith in His glory
Have faith in His might
In Him your heart is full
In Him your soul is complete
In Him your life is right
God is the puzzle piece
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