He Makes Me More - 8/12/13

I may not have straight teeth

Or the prettiest smile

The peace and joy He gives

Shines through when I smile

I may not be skinny

Or the best physique

I have some of His fire

Burning within me

I may have trouble 

Forgiving myself

I am highly forgiving of others

I know He's forgiven me

I may seem like I can handle 

Anything and everything

I'm learning from Him

I need to ask for help

I may have mental issues

Emotional problems

I'm learning from Him

More compassion for those who also do

I may seem introverted 

Not liking big groups

Get me in a small group of 1 to 3

I'm an open book relatively

I may seem very serious

Or depressed

I laugh very easily and am

Quite goofy

I may seem very quiet

Like I never talk

I love to share my testimony

One on few very talkative

I may be stubborn

Not really following along

I do follow Him and 

Do what i'm prompted to

Every where

I lack or think I do

He makes it up

Makes me more

I have trouble with confidence

Writing this hasn't been easy

It became easier to see

How much He has blessed me

He told me I'm like a

Diamond in the rough

Once you get past 

All the walls I put up

Smooth out

Refine

Inside i'm burning bright

Waiting to shine

He makes me more

More than 

I ever

Could be before

He makes up 

For where I lack

Puts in the good

Takes out the bad

I'm learning

To see and be

How He sees me

Who I could be

I'm learning 

I can be better

Than who I was

Could have been

I'm starting to accept

I can be a queen

A royal daughter

Of our Heavenly King. 

I hope with this

If you have personal issues

Confidence issues

Like me

That you can learn to see

How blessed you are

That He can make you more

Than you've ever dreamed. 

Conflicted - 8/12/13

I don't want to leave
I don't want to go
I have to
I need to
I don't want to

I want to stay here
I want to stay put
I can't
I won't
I want to

Staying in this pew
Staying in this meeting
Staying in this building
Is where I should be
I can't

I feel awkward
I feel cold
I feel like I don't belong
In this ward
I do

Work is calling me
I have to leave
I need to leave
I can't be late
I must go

Taking part of the sacrament
Is almost through
I need to leave for work soon
Sat in the back
Preparing

Its never been this hard before
To get up and
Walk out that door
Different reasons the
Other times

I feel pulled to stay
This is where I should be
I feel pulled to go
There is where I have to be
I'm being pulled in two

My heart aches
Wipe tears from my face
As I get in my car
Buckle in
Turn it on

Driving on the freeway
I feel like screaming
I feel like I disobeyed
I feel like turning around
Going back

I feel the Spirit come over me
Trying to comfort
Trying to calm
Trying to soothe my heart
I need to let Him in

Tells me I did as prompted
I talked to my boss
About going to church first
Before working
If I must work Sundays

She was nice
Let me go to church first
Now I need to
Follow up on my end
I have to

Tells me He gave me this job
It will be hard
It will be challenging
It may not seem fair
I won't always have to work Sundays

Pulling into the parking lot
I do my best
To pull myself together
Determined to give it my all
Despite this

I know He'll be with me
I know He'll be near
I know He can always hear
When I am joyous and
When I am conflicted.